Average Joe In The House. sKy

Again, I'm back to blogging. This time, I can't be bothered to design a website, because I know I suck at it.

Things among us are not good. Boring is the word she came up with. I don't know what to do.

Am I really such a lousy boyfriend?

I love her with all I have. But it's just the things that I do, or rather I don't do, that made her feelings for me turn bland. I'm an unromantic guy, and I do not know how to make things interesting in the relationship. Going out weekly has taken its toll. It has made our relationship boring, at least that's what she feels. It's as though we go out for the sake of it, and not because we want to see each other and be in the company of each other.

I need to do some things. Things that change things for the better. Small things like buying gifts, taking note of what she needs and likes, etc.

But why can't I do it? Am I going to find an excuse and say that army caused me to be like this? Or was I like this since young, just that I didn't know?

What will happen from here? Will it be too unbearable for her? Will she give me, or the relationship, another chance?

I'm feeling very low, very confused, very sad and very angry with myself.