Average Joe In The House. sKy

A lousy boyfriend.

For the past 3 years, I've never really given happiness to my Dear. I didn't know how to show her that I appreciate all the work that she's done, I didn't know how to give her surprises, say or do sweet things to make her feel special.

Instead I gave her the idea that I'm taking her for granted.

Which of course I didn't.

I guess I'm just really lousy in coming with ideas to make her happy, or even a simple surprise like buying her a small little keychain that she loves in Comics Connection, or a little figurine that she sees in Toys R Us.

I know that these 3 years, life has been really boring for us, and that we've been doing the same thing all the time, and not trying other things. Like going to Escape and take rides together, like going to the beach for a simple picnic, like going to the pool and have a swim together, like going to Sentosa to suntan together. But it just didn't happen. I've always wanted to do all these together with my Dear, but it didn't happen. I wonder if it is because she isn't really a sporty kind of person, or because I'm just too lazy to prepare and bring her there.

So what if I have all these ideas in my head, when I don't even execute them?

I only have myself to blame that our relationship has now come to such a stage, where both of us are taking a break from the relationship. Whether or not will we be together again after this break (god knows how long) is another story.

Even though I don't want to lose her, I don't know what to do to bring her back into my life, and make her feel like she IS the crucial and special element in my life, and that it doesn't feel good without her in it.

Some of you might think that I should just get on with my life, and either find another new girl or stay as a bachelor for the rest of my life.

But all I want is my Dear to come back into my life. Simple request? Not easy, not when she's tired after 3 years.

Somebody please give me a slap, and make me learn this lesson forever.

All I need is a chance to prove myself.